We were flying home from Jerusalem to New York in the middle of the night. I was sitting next to Jonathan on a plane full of our sleeping, rosy cheeked, college age, nearly jewish youthgroup type, trip-mates. No one stirred except for a single stewardess, gliding her snack-mobile silently down the aisle. I don't know exactly what we were talking about, in hushed voices, and it didn't really matter. Any kind of bantering with Jonathan always gave me the feeling that no one was having the same conversation anywhere in the world at that same time.
Sitting there, I remember I made a certain choice I've never since regretted. We hadn't known each other long at all, but something promised me that I could trust him with my favorite song, and not only that, but maybe, perhaps, he might even like it. I'd never ever been able to get anyone to like Queen's "Loverboy" as much as I adored it. I cued up my walkman and passed it to him. I remember watching his face, impatiently waiting for any reaction, any sign. There was a confusing little smile that I later learned to mean that Jonathan found something amusing. When the song was over, he thought for a while and then said he liked it. And he wouldn't have just said that to make me feel good. He liked it! Yes!!!
When the stewardess rolled around our way, we had worked out a small routine: Jonathan was to distract her with a complicated question, while I used the trick of the hand to collect us a number of mini bottles of wine, Maneschewitz, but still...it was an achievement comprable to a good reportcard. Even better.
Nowadays, it happens really often. No matter where. Once at a bus stop in the middle of nowhere in southern Spain. Once when I was on a bike, crossing over Mass Ave. I see someone from the back and because of the way he's walking, with little delayed springs under his feet, because of a certain unexpected movement, or a pair of glasses, I think it's Jonathan. And everytime, for a split second, I really believe it's him. I think I like that. I'm not disappointed that it's not him after reality resettles. Because in a way it is him.
I don't know how to end this, there shouldn't be an end. So maybe just the classic three ...