It was two years yesterday and somehow we got through the day. Mom, Josh and I met Chip and Marisa at Kates and we talked about you. I heard "Velvet Underground" there for the first time and really like them and everybody said that you like them too. I can't understand why I never heard them, as you've introduced me to most of the music you like. Ethan and Julie were supposed to be there too, but they couldn't make it. Emily Fromm called Josh to say she was thinking of you, and I see that Raj posted a note on your message board. We got a really nice email from Bret, who says that he thinks about you every day. I really miss you and Mom and I often talk about things you would like to do or see or hear. We all love you vey much.

hey jon, 2 years has gone since you're gone and i still think about you all the time...miss you jon, wish you were here...

man, it was so good to know that i wasn't the only one that liked that crazy song. and you dug it the very first time you heard it! that was so cool of you. ill never ever ever forget it. this world is truly lacking people like you. there's a deficit of you.

every day it's a gettin faster goin by just like a roller coaster

happy birthday johnny. thinking of you.

J-Dog, Happy birthday buddy. I was just thinking last weekend about the time we were chilling out in your room at the arts haus with the plastic light up snowman and that kid yelled something to me from outside. Then I looked out the window and he threw a fire extinguisher at my head, which totally almost hit me. So then I chucked an empty beer bottle at him and completely missed. That was bizarre. I often wondered to myself while walking around campus if he ever walked past me and thought to himself, that's the kid I almost killed with a fire extinguisher... Missing you as always and constantly replaying conversations in my head, Chip

Happy Birthday, Jonathan. Always thinking of you....

During the weekend before we found out that Jonathan was ill, he asked me what was the best day of my life. "That's easy," I replied. "It was the day you were born." I remember when the nurse brought out this beautiful little baby and let me hold him and hug him. And he always gave me as much happiness as he did on that first day. And I still love you Jonathan.

trying to figure out what runs through my head when i think about jonathan, i scour my mind for help, background, a similar experience. the closest thing i can relate it to is the one and only time (thus far) my heart was truly broken. for those of you who've had it happen, you probably know that feeling of someone being in your heart, but not there with you. besides the fact that i would have my heart broken over and over to have jonathan back (just one way he put things in perspective for me- heart break, big deal!) this is different from heartbreak. with heartbreak, there is often resentment of some sort that the heartbreaker has stolen your trust, conquered a corner of your heart and then left it to waste away. in jdog's case, he has a peice of my heart, and i want him to have it. he is still there. and he reminds me that he's there all the time. i think about what he went through, what i went through with him. the ups and downs and more than anything always maintaining hope. then i take a gulp and a breath and move on to who he was when he was healthy, and the fun we had. that makes me smile. after it all, i'm left with what he taught me- that my life is a gift, and it really does feel like a gift from him (sorry mom and dad), because he is always there, like an internal bat-phone to jdog, inspiring me. -daniel

Jonathan, we all still really miss you like crazy. Lefty is starting an all-girls punk-rock roller-derby league--I think you'd be really into it. I'd also be curious to know what you think of some of the music I've been listening to lately--the Kills, Girls at Our Best, the Fiery Furnaces. Wish you were here.